My Hero!

These days I often find myself lapsing into this different kind of emotion, something that brings tears to my eyes. It has finally dawned upon me that I will be getting married in less than a year and I won't be around each day making that special morning tea that Papa loves.

As a child, I always knew that I'll leave home one day to go and live with my soulmate, my life partner. It always bothered me that I didn't have a brother who'd be there everyday with mummy and papa, after even my sister got married. I'm sure my parents never had that kind of a fear and they've brought up me and my sister with all the comforts that they could provide.

I've been thinking about the times I got mad at Papa for various things. Trivial issues. I wonder why I ever lost my temper at dad from small things. No one's perfect and I expected him to be. It is only now I realize that he is perfect in his own special way. He's my perfect hero.

Papa has always given me whatever I wanted. Always. He cared to listen to me, wanted to hear me out even though I was always chatty with mummy. I always felt that I can talk only the 'serious things' with papa and maintain a sort of 'professionalism' with him, while being pally with mummy. That is how our equation has been working so far.

I was scared as hell when I spoke to him about Snehal but his reaction to it just made me want to hug him. I realize now that I don't actually remember hugging him ever. He was cool about everything, putting my happiness first. He always has as I think of it now.

I remember telling my Dadi that I will marry someone from Hyderabad so that I don't have to go away from home. Now that I'll go away over 1200kms away, I don't know what it must be like for Papa .

This diwali when I went home, I could sense that papa realised it was my last diwali at home. I guess all of us wanted to make is special this time. And we did. For the first time in all these years, my diwali was memorable and I felt truly connected and happy. I'm sure papa did as well.

Each night I dread thinking about the day I go away, I dread seeing tears in my hero's eyes, I dread showing him my tears. But I guess it is bound to happen. Yes, he'll cry and so will I. I can already see that it is a moment of pride for a father when he gets his daughter married and papa
is excited. But those tears are inevitable.

Just wanted to say that Papa I love you very much for everything that you have ever done for me and all the happiness that you have given me in life. You not only gave me a life, but most importantly you gave me the freedom to live it on my terms. Love you papa.

11 Observations:

  1. thats so sweet dolls...u made a special post for ur dad so sweet of u ...loads of love..yeah i no its hard for him to take it u staying 1200 miles away but its destined right :)..anyways it was soo good to read a wonderful post from u after so many days....:)..really loved everything say hi to uncle :)...ur hero :)..loads a love to u...take care..have a nice sunday...


  1. Priya Joyce said...:

    yaar senti kar diya...

    tat ws too emotional re..
    somewer deep down i too realize that I too am a daughter...

    I kindaa know or may be sense it how you must be feeling ahhh...u r a complete papa's gal re...
    papa toh papa hi hote hei na well..senti mat ho ji :)

  1. k.ø.c.h.ü said...:

    hugz dollz...luvd it...touchin dedication..

    ahem ahem..even as a child u thought of weddings..ahem ahem..monkey...

    n dont u worry princess...u do hav a 'brother'(witty,smart,handsome,talented future doc) whull take care of yer parents provided half de fortune is handed over 2 him..(evil laugh bu hu ha ha)

    kiddin ye so much dollz...know wot, der r very instances wen i constant prayer is..."sumday ill marry a gal...n dat gal should luv my luvly parents too,wen im away..."

  1. Shalom said...:

    Its a bittersweet feeling indeed, going thru those last moments, festivals etc with ur family. Inshallah there'll be more opportunities to celebrate life's big & small moments together with all ur family :)

  1. Anonymous said...:


    Ur post had me in tears!

    God bls u and ur family :)

  1. Ria said...:

    thats such a sweet post...and that reminds me what will i do when i get married!? I hav no idea how will i stay without my parents. I m jus so used to having them around me.

    Sometimes, i tell mom tht i will take them along as dowry when i get married. :P

  1. Sweetheart, this is not the last Diwali that you enjoyed with them. We all are going to celebrate many more festivals together. Don't worry that you haven't got brother, but your father has got son. :)

    Snehu :)

  1. Renu said...:

    very sweet Smriti!Today there is no difference between son or daughter, both have to leave home for jobs and both may come whenevr needed.

  1. Diva said...:

    more than the post, the family portrait put up at the end overwhelmed me! Beautiful picture... True Happiness and joy...:) Good post...

  1. Miami said...:

    That was wonderful dd..... :D

  1. aqua gurl said...:

    hey lovely!
    hows it been gng....long time i know..!!
    hope alls well
    congrats on the wedding news...:)
    and lovely post, straight from the heart :)
    tc and keep writing :)

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