Today it rained....

It seemed to rain everywhere...Delhi, Kolkatta, Bangalore...and I was wondering aloud why it doesnt rain here.

As a kid, I had a theory. It is not supposed to rain in summers. To my amazement, and if you may call it a co-incidence, it so happened that it rained everytime I cried my heart out. Only in summers. Dadi used to say, "See, the gods are crying with you. They can see your pain and they are telling you, you are not alone. Now stop crying or there'll be floods." I thought myself to be a rain goddess of sorts. The things that we think as kids. :)

Anyways, so last night I was chatting with Alok and he said it was raining in Bangalore. Oh how I wished it rained here too. As with me, mood swings have been a norm lately and yesterday night, I let the flood-gates open, FINALLY. I tried in vain to sleep. I managed to get some sleep in the end and woke up with swollen eyes.... Mom asked, "Didnt you sleep last night?". Not very well Ma.

As I exited my room, I could smell the cool fresh air of the earth awash with rain. I was instantly struck with the thoughts of my childhood and my grandma. I did my morning routine of preparing breakfast and getting Mom's tiffin from outside. I stepped out of the house to find that it has started to rain...I got the tiffin, came back home and off I went to the terrace.

I stood there amidst the sudden downpour. I told Alok last night, "the rain seems to wash away all the worry from my head". And so it did today, yet again. I stood in the rain and I cried and I cried. I cried for everything I'd lost, I cried for being such a fool, I cried over something I never had....I just cried. The rain stopped, as suddenly as it had started. I heard a voice, it was my own. It said, "Enough of crying now... You are not alone. There are millions like you. Here are the million tear drops from heaven. You are not alone...You are not alone. Stop crying now!".

And I did. I waited a few minutes on the terrace, lest mom should see through me and this time the reddenned eyes would betray me. I stood there for a few minutes and the heaven sent me another message.... "The sun has risen, so must you".

The first ray of bright sunshine hit my forehead and said, "Lets make your life 'BRIGHTER THAN SUNSHINE' shall we?". And so... I'm gonna do it my way!

P.S. Diva, my sunshine... as always, gives me my first smiles of a totally pathetic morning. Now I know I hava a brighter day in store, thanks to the virtual HUGS and SMILES. Mwah!! Love you!!

5 Observations:

  1. Diva said...:

    Morning itself is a ray of hope after the darkness of the night sweetie.. so its always beautiful!!!Rain is beautiful.. n so are you, the sweet lil' rain-goddess ;)
    Am glad it washed away all the worries :), its the power of water u see ;)

    And of course, u know you are not alone .. NEVER!!!!!!

    MORNING IS HERE.. SUNSHINE IS HERE :D :D (Remember Joey ;) )

  1. :D :D :D

    Abhi ittne HUGS to de di tu...what else can I ask for??? :)

    And Joey....yeah....come over sometime and we can stand across the hall and sing it out to each other. :P

  1. Jaydip Mehta said...:

    Once upon a time in India, there was a musician called Tansen. Whenever he was singing raag maalhaar, it was used to rain. Now in this era I think it is you, Smriti. You cry, and rain comes.

    On a serious note, its really good feeling when you comes know "i am not alone". In bad times we tend to think I am the only one. I am the only sufferer. But when you see other's pain and sufferings, you feel that "I AM NOT ALONE".

  1. Alok said...:

    Hey, I know god has gifted you a different and beautiful pair of eyes, so you better dono worry about them … it's his responsibility :)

    Smriti, amazing piece of stuff … for a moment I was speechless/wordless.

    The rain, the sunshine and all those things (I didn’t forget to include the living beings in this list) that are guided by the powerful almighty; all of them directs us towards on thing and that is ‘nothing last forever’. Ever since we touched upon those emotional elements we see life has a different meaning. I don’t deny that at times they are the only meanings of our life. Nevertheless we realize that the happiness, the pains, the sorrows, the joys in our life is not just ours because it’s guided by so many powerful elements on this earth; everyone has their own share of it.

    The nature has its own way of defining things for us … Keep the faith on shinny day, it will take off the darkness around you… keep the faith on the darkness of the night it will take off the heat from you … And rains … they are the symbol of life regrouping and regenerating …. Do you remember the chemistry class about ‘The Water Cycle’ ? … well that’s exactly holds good in our life too.

    Hey again, we all have a power within us and it is inside our mind … it can turn the world around us, not just for us but for the whole world itself. How lucky we are ?? we are blessed with such a power thing along with a whole bunch of beautiful minds around …

    Keep smiling :)

  1. --xh-- said...:

    :) rain... how much i wish to get drenched... happy to know that you are smiling and feeling better...

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