Too Much to take

Four more days.

It is just hard to believe. Something I had been dreading for a long time is now just 4 days away and as I sit typing this at 1.50 AM on Sunday, 8th of February, I feel like the loneliest person in the world. I have to face the inevitable and I am shit scared of going through with it alone. The more I try and tell myself that I need to face it, for my own sake, the more I want to run away from it. But how?? I cannot see any way out of it. I am at loss of feelings and emotions and I hate this negativity that creeps in. Never knew what it feels to be numb....I guess this very moment should describe it. I really don't know what I should be doing...I want to cry but the tears seem all dried up. They don't want to come out. I am at such discomfort and completely aimless about what needs to be done in such a case. Should I be feeling this way? Shouldn't I just be happy for someone else and stop brooding over something that was never there? Should this be the way to end all those years of .....?

Right at this very moment I dont know. I cannot figure it out. I cannot think. I cant sleep. I'll sign off.

12 Observations:

  1. sawan said...:

    four more days and wuts gona happen??

  1. k.ø.c.h.ü said...:


    hey..dis template is too gud..!!!

  1. dolls i know this feeling and it sometimes have so much problem on the daily life..dolls i know wats there in 4 days...but i wish u come over to vizag...and u know y...dont think much u just fly over here dolls..and i dont u to be in this mood plssss cheer up :)..


  1. Anonymous said...:

    What's happening in 4 days?

  1. Anonymous said...:

    Or are you trying to fool us all? But it isn't April yet?

  1. Renu said...:

    hey, why this suspense...writing a story?

  1. miss;

    wat ever it is - we r livin life in dis whole wide world, alone. its us. and our own selves. no matter how many frens, lovers and such dat we r havin anyway.

    and wat ever it is - trust me - life's aint dat bad. there must be a silver lining for every dark clouds.

    ur gonna be ok.

  1. Anonymous said...:

    U r arousing curiosity..I don't know wht it is tht u r referring to..Lemme know if I can help :)

    and its my driving belief tht -all tht happens, happens for the best!


  1. Ria said...:

    four more days to wht babe?plz solve the mystery....

  1. aqua gurl said...:

    4 more days....hmm...whats it smriti???

    Whatever the thing is, all i want to say is, dont be scared, face it, have the faith and the hope!!!!

    You'll survive:D:D

    Take care

    Aqua gurl

  1. Anonymous said...:

    So tomorrow is the D-Day??? But what is it?

  1. Sumitra Rao said...:

    hey smriti.. u have so many blogs that it took me quite a while to decide which to read.. this one is really sweet and its got a lovely template.. hope you feel better soon!!!

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