Back to my senses

Ok. So the rambling early saturday morning was real stupid. I wasnt writing a story, no suspense intended. Was just plain frustrated and couldn't sleep. Monday morning I started the art of living course and it as been alright thus far. I meant the course. I would have been back to normal in any which case.

So its the D-Day today. And I'm not as fidgety or uncomfortable as I was on Saturday night. The reason for the all the stupidness?? Well someone I've known forever, is getting married today. I cannot attend the wedding coz it can get a little awkward. No I do not love him. Saying this for the nth time. But there are reasons which to the outsider, may never seem clear.

He decided to cut the cords of 12 yrs of friendship when the marriage was fixed and I was blamed for being insensitive when I asked questions. It is hard to let go of friends. Especially someone you've known since you were a kid. All the memories of revising lessons together, filling slam books, eating ice creams, running around like fools as kids.... to sharing family issues, health issues and every other issue....just come as a flashback. Sari bua says you feel bad coz it is the loss of a relationship and no one wants to feel that loss.

I had something in mind to gift him. Something he gave me as a mark of our ever-lasting friendship. But I cannot go to the wedding. I will dedicate a blog to him tonight. Hope he reads it someday.

Ok I'm not sombre anymore. Me and Divya are meeting up today and we'll have a lot of time to spend with each other. Like old days. Haven't done it in the longest of times and I think I've taken her too much for granted. We are going to watch Dev D... lunch before that...Maybe window shopping after that. OK OK. I'm going....gotta start getting ready, its a one hour drive from home.

Updates on the way. And I'm feeling better :)

15 Observations:

  1. sam said...:

    hey smriti, just let bygones b bygones...just forget him...i know its just a run of the mill advise...

    wd say more on this laters

  1. Swats said...:

    I am not here to preach to u or give u a sermon abt 'right' and 'wrong'..So I'm just gonna say one thing- "all tht happens, happens for the best."

    TAKE CARE

    *HUGS*

  1. --xh-- said...:

    cutting a 12 yr old frndship coz he is getting married? i dont want to be judgmental, but for me, the act do seems foolish...
    it is very hard to let go of relations.. especially deep rooted and old friendships like this... :|

  1. Rakesh said...:

    Finally... you kept us in suspense for quite long smriti (and it was very unlike you)

    But I second swats. Take care

  1. Renu said...:

    Its very difficult to forget close relationships overnight, but always think about the good times you had and let it remain as a good memory......In the future you wioll certainly meet many more interesting people and have many more nurturing realtio0nships.

  1. :)...its good to see ya back dolls...keep smiling :)..

    urs..hemu..

  1. my space said...:

    kissi afsane ko anjaam tak laana na ho mumkin,toh ussey ek khoobsurat mod dekar chodna acchaa!!

    v philosphical...but jo beet gayi wo baat gayi...cry if u feel like but then move on..

  1. Leo said...:

    don't worry... if the cord of your friendship was very strong, it may reattach itself someday! if not, well u had 12 very good years, and maybe another 12 good years with another friend.

    keep smilin dear...! it will be fine! :)

  1. Ria said...:

    Just let him be babe!mebbe he dint deserve ur friendship! :) I knw u deserve the best!! So jus believe in ur self.

  1. Reflections said...:

    I'm sorry.....I know it must hurt:-(.

    Its a cliche I knw but Time heals all wounds:-)).

    Ur template is WOW....where did u pick it up from....I've been searching for one for ages now:-(

  1. sawan said...:

    tell me hw dev d went?? hrd mixed reviews :(

  1. Shalom said...:

    It takes 2 to make any relationship work, 'taali ek haath se nahi bajti' and all such similar cliches ..... but even cliched, they're absolutely true. Let go, make your peace with the situation and move on happily with your life....its too damn short & precious to waste on ppl who don't care about you.

  1. Oxy said...:

    Something similar here.. feb 11th was marriage of a dear friend I did not attend for reasons more or less similar to yours. Such is life.

  1. k.ø.c.h.ü said...:

    hmmm...dollz not feelin gud...? hmm..just feelin 'better' ha...i didnt know u had a prob..i waas about 2 shout @u 4 not havin sent de missed cals u promised...hmmm...memorise of de punch-bag came buk..grrr...now im turnin sentimental...gr...im leavin...but ill b bak 2 get de smile bak instilled on dat chubby face...::)))) i think v need a chat...girlie really..need a chat..n i promise ill make ye smile !!

  1. SMRITI said...:

    @Everyone

    Thank you so much for your love and support..really appreciate it all :)

    Ok no more getting senti...I'm back!! :P

 
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